Yesterday was 2009.11.19, distance 2009.9.9 is 70 days, how can I feel like seven months, even years so long. Don't know where day, I can forget to adapt, adapt to the heart of empty feeling.
Have a heart of many words, the inconvenience to the man he said. Fortunately, I of the net friend is a few, can each other speak the truth. Still, I have to find yesterday in personal say just good, life such as play just online. I told him I had no one to talk to, also may be don't want to say, he answered the four word: too high.
Maybe, I still badly as pride and loftiness.
The day before yesterday I boss drink many, malicious said a truth, perhaps those words suppress his heart for a long time. , I've been too proud, too ShaoBao, not modest, not the people into the eyes, not to say words insincerely. Etc.
Ah, I in people's eyes that ghost appearance, whether very hateful?
But, I should have changed a lot. I'm not so tantrums, no longer then love gets angry, no longer so have reason to not let a person, others face I also not too dispute, I should have accepted and blended in ordinary life.
Only these, away from the true ceased, but still some distance.
I am not happy. Very unhappy. I tried to live each day, busy, seemingly enrichment, but my heart no hope, no expectations, no the heartache of feeling, not the writing to my passion and happiness. I'll step by step to vanish in ordinary among
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